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finally is beginning to feel like christmas!

retreat

well, this was probably my first winter retreat ever, and it was... different. not better, not worse, just different. the last night wasn't the usual cry, and pray session. i took a lot of time just thinking and sorting my thoughts. and i've reached a conclusion: God can be, and is, very punctual. sigh, i just have to keep reminding myself, that it really is going to be worth it. God loves me so much more than any human being can love, took me a while to really grasp this. God loves you :D

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sad christmas

hm... i just can't seem to get into the "christmas spirit" i don't know why. i think its a mixture of things from the economy crashing and the series of recent events, but never before did i ever have a problem of getting excited for christmas.. i'm a total mess, i can't concentrate or anything, i think i should start running and working out again if i'm gonna play football again. y'know football is real fun and stuff but i remember before every game i was scared stiff about getting hurt and stuff, but right now, i don't really care if it hurts. hm.. yeah thats it... oh and for all you who are reading this, probably not many, but uh go to www.myspace.com/wayneebraineee. christmas without you, thats just how i feel, what a coincidence..

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i'm getting back up now