sad christmas

hm... i just can't seem to get into the "christmas spirit" i don't know why. i think its a mixture of things from the economy crashing and the series of recent events, but never before did i ever have a problem of getting excited for christmas.. i'm a total mess, i can't concentrate or anything, i think i should start running and working out again if i'm gonna play football again. y'know football is real fun and stuff but i remember before every game i was scared stiff about getting hurt and stuff, but right now, i don't really care if it hurts. hm.. yeah thats it... oh and for all you who are reading this, probably not many, but uh go to www.myspace.com/wayneebraineee. christmas without you, thats just how i feel, what a coincidence..